When I was 24, these feeling of attraction to a man seem to start coming out. I started to talk to other gay guys online and eventually made a guy. Because I was not willing to accept my sexuality or was unable to express or feel my own emotions like I should have been, I made a really poor decision in who I meet. This resulted in many years of problems following the end of our “relationship”.

Thank God that He was there when everything ended. God let me know that everything in the end would be fine, even though the path that I was going to be embarking on was going to be long and difficult. The journey I was about to begin was one like I never experienced in my life and it was one that I was not really looking forward to taking. I did though believe that God was going to be with me on this journey and I accepted what was about to happen in my life.

While on this journey, I accepted my sexuality. I was able to start expressing myself better and started to feel more of the joys of life. Accepting the fact that I was a gay Catholic has made life much more worth living. I do not hide the fact that I am both gay and Catholic. The people where I work have know that I am both of these things and have never once questioned if it is possible to someone to be both at the same time.

I do believe that accepting my sexuality was something God wanted of me. I now attend Courage monthly and enjoy spending time with the priest that runs the group. I enjoy spending time with the few friends that I have and they were much more accepting of my sexuality and religious few points then I thought they would be. I pay more attention to the little things in life; believe that it is in the little things that God shows us He is with us. I still have my struggles and still working on expressing myself better, but over all I do believe that my life has improved since I accepted myself as being gay.